life in casualty

life as a HO alwaz sucks...

last night i worked night shift..my 2 MO's were sleeping in their dreams and i'm the one settle those admission..nowadays many psychiatric patient turned up in the early morning just to seek treatment for the symptoms already appeared for ages...what so emergency about it~i found out that the public really abusing the meaning of emergency !!!

1st case: baby presented with crystalline urine
i reassured the parents that it's just crystalline urine, nothing to worried about the kidney.the parents were not satisfied and somemore telling me that the baby seems to be pale after the "hematuria"(bloody urine) and yet the baby was active and pink in front of me..oh my goodness, nowadays parents seem to have munchausen's by proxy(parents creating symptoms for their baby just to get attention). when i said the baby is going to be admitted to ward, they was so happy..really stupid parents, never thought that their baby was extremely healthy now had to stay with those sick children in the ward..

2nd case: young lady in comatose state
20+yo young lady brought in "uncosncious" state ...reluctant to open her eyes even though i pressed hard on the sternum(to assess GCS level) and Dextrostix(capillary blood sugar) was normal..my experienced MO already know the spot diagnosis--post-hypoventilation, he made a small trick and the patient had to open her eyes even though how she had been faking doing it for the past few minutes. on further questioning, she had quarrel with her father and she forced herself to hyperventilate..gila patient!!!

3rd case: young man with gum pain
initially i thought of mumps but when i saw the patient walking in without painful facial expression, i found abit weird. i asked him to open his mouth and saw a big ulcer sitting at the gum there, i was in rage..why people thought doctor is so free to be a dentist?a gum ulcer ...pleaselah, u can apply bonjela cream and it should be common sense that this is not emergency case!!!throughout the consultation, i had to suppress my anger and told him what to treat the ulcer he had.

4th ..100th case: MC ...MC...MC
since medical student till now, i never had a chance to get MC even though i was having high grade fever with chills and rigors..
nowadays, people use MC as an excuse to getaway from work, school and many other unacceptable reason.. i can diagnose a patient whether he is coming for MC or really truly fall sick by just seeing the facial expression..
i had 1 patient ..he was complaining everywhere pain and yet there's no suggestive signs and symptoms and also lab results was normal..in the end, he said he want 3 days MC's..damn insulting.sorry for those seeking MC's patients,I'm very stingy in giving MC's as i'm still not well trained to write MC's even though i had struggling through 5 years medical study~

haih..kinda disappointed with the casualty department without filtering those unwanted so-called emergency stuff...

i hate everything in my life~

recently had cut my hair short then lots of unlucky stuffs just appeared continuously within 1 weeks time~which made my life unbelievable horribly suffering

ever since i've been transfered up to melor 1, my life sucks~

1st incident:
oncall with 1 senior MO who is damn not thoughtful, insisted to get things done fast~
trace results fast
clerk case fast
everything fast
and yet she is sleeping inside MO's room soundly and me clerking case tiringly in the ward~
just missed 1 blood result being traced...she's shouting at me for that~
and the whole night ...the management for the child is totally wrong even though i informed her the result abit late~
the specialist blamed her and she put all her anger towards me~
since then, every single mistake i made or not mine is considered a big mistake i made~what a bitch she is~

2nd incident:
my colleage dr ng got pissed off with me because of not waiting for her to dabao food together~
what a childish act ~
for those working in HSAH paediatrics under Dr K will always have to eat fast when it's free because of TDS rounds and her mis--time management~
that morning, she was stuck with a case together with dr K(MO),i approached her to ask whether want to go down and dabao not, she din answered but silently wish that i would wait for her after that case being clerked~
i din wait for her as who knows Dr K might be doing round unexpectedly~
quickyly, my colleague and i went down dabaoing the food without her~ but of cause, dabao for her as well~
when we returned to ward, she wasnt appreaciate the food and yet throwing tempered at me as why i din wait for her? she refused the food and also din want to talk to us for just that small little matter~
what she wants actually? belongingship?
we are just colleague or may be a normal friend~
we are not that close until can address us as good friends
and please dun be such childish until acting as if we are primary school children~
we are mid 20's reaching 30's soon
i know u dun have boyfriend and i oso single ...but i'm not lesbian okay..
i will treat every colleague as friends but nobody will be so easily becomes my good friend or best friend as i just wont treasure them~

i can mix well with every human with different characters but please dun expect me to be ur good frend~

i just love to work alone and be alone and dun ever intervene my life unless i give permission~

3rd incident: i broke rules and causing every paeds HO losing their precious weekend leave~
today , i supposed to have happy family reunion as my brother just came back from US after leaving us for 4 months
i always prioritised my family as 1st place in my life~
even though my mother always giving me wet blanket and critisizing for every single decision i made
~my attire~my hairstyle~everything which made me damn want to leave my family away
but i cannot do so as i love my family very much even though they are not supportive with their conservative mindset~

today i just din turned up for work and my Boss Dr T(HOD) was searching for me and pissed of with my "irresponsible" disappearance~
i already applied weekend leave few days away and i just dunno how to check whether it's approved or not and i oso just din bothered about it ~
the whole paeds HO were pissed of with me as they deprived of weekend off for the next month because of my selfish act~

damn feeling guilty now~
truly speaking, i'm the person who just cant breath under lot's of rules~
i dun like rules and like to break them~
please lah~weekend off is the rights of every single dr's
i really dun like being a dr
dr actually is like the maids in the health system~
how i wish i dun be a dr~
but if not being a dr, wat else i can be? i will be a begger as i dun have other skills to earn a living...wat to do?!

how i wish my life will be end soon
if i died, i tin i wont regret oso as my life is not meaningful anyway~
i'm just orang gaji for everyone only~

how i wish.....~

have been working for almost 1 year housemanship

bored

everyday need to wake up early, doing rounds, seeing patient, explaining to patient and their family, getting scold by boss/MO, oncalls with sickening patients whom bearing the pain throughout the day which eager to be admitted to ward only at night and never see doctor in daytime, being bullied by the senior staff nurses and the PPK which are lower ranking in the health system, worked with lousy colleague which also get the same paid with you and need to cover their ass job..

being a doctor really need patience and patience~

how i wish i can release myself from this suck life

how i wish i can get away to far far place where only me alone and no need to entertain those sickening human

sometime i depressed till i wish to end my life
luckily still having my family who so kind to listen to my grumbling

how i wish my life will be better~

I'M YOURS

Just hope that i'm yours forever and ever~
miss those time we do revision together before my end posting exam~
wish to listen to ur violin song which melted ppl heart~
hope that i'm the one and only u'll play this song~

reedit(jun09):
no longer waiting for u to confess...
i tin we can still bcome good friends

I'm in ortho posting~

now is my second posting~time really flies~i've been working for the past 5 months of medical slave..

after saying goodbye to medical posting, i was initially glad that i'm being posted to this ortho posting as everybody claimed that it's the most "senang" posting but it's not actually after i started the 1st day active call.

During my 1st call, admission seems like diarrhoea to the ward,i have to cover 2 wards in a night running hell like headless chicken where my active MO and 2nd call are stuck in the OT and i have to depend on my own and also help from experienced staff nurses.

SPINAL SHOCK SYNDROME--came in at 11pm and I was taking the case easily without informing my MO as not thinking that it's actually an emergency case. luckily my stuff nurse sms my 2nd call MO secretly. I was shocked that seeing my 2nd call MO attended the pt stat within 10mins after i finish taking the pt blood and clerking the history.It is emergency!!!i felt very embarrassing that i was unable to recognise which is emergency and which is not~but luckily pt health is not endangered with the delayed 10 mins treatment.

i found out that oncall=emergency. one should learn how to recognise and deal with emergency~i'm still learning~hope that one day i can be independent and handle emergency case calmly

避风港不见了

还有2年得呆在外头生活~算算我已7年离乡背井

偶尔回家但已感受不到家的温暖。。

我的衣服书本都已打包在盒子里~

家里的任何一个角落都看不到属于我的东西。。。

与家人谈天好像和陌生人谈天。。

心里的寂寞伤悲沮丧只能往肚里吞

一切一切都变得陌生

属于我的避风港已不在了。。。

当医生的第三个月

累累累。。。

我第一个posting : medical posting-
当我的学长知道时，他祝我好运~
当我踏进ward时，护士们祝我好运~
DR SUNITA 人人听到她的大名，就连10KM远的亚罗市打医院的工作人员都闻知丧胆~她是我的大大老板。。

头两个月我没WORK DIRECTLY UNDER 她，天天在WARD逍遥自在过着HONEYMOON 的生活~

第三个月我被调去她的ward,天天过着提心吊胆的生活但我进步很多，生活过得很充实~

现在接近最后一个月了，开始很舍不得medical posting~我的mo~my colleague~my staff nurse

很庆幸的，我学了很多很多PROCEDURE~我最爱的cvp line insertion:long,short,femoral catheterization

但在这MEDICALPOSTING 里天天都得带着假面具做人，天天防备被人陷害，好人坏人都很难分辨~
有些人为了再BOSS面前争宠失去了做医生的身份，失去了好友，失去了行医的目的~
若我再呆久点，我也会在这游戏中迷失了自我~
人际关系真难搞~

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一星期前有天下午正当我外出时，我妈手机接了一通无名的电话，对方是个口音很重中国腔的中年男子号称是威尼斯人度假村酒店的工作人员想做个电话访问并向我介绍了该集团是什么什么来的，他啰里啰唆地说了一大堆。他又问我是否曾留意中国报有该集团的报道，我说我家没订阅也不曾留意什么威尼斯人。他又说他们将会在大马langkawi投资度假村，啰里啰唆的又说了一大篇，我随便听听，反正车程还有一段时间又不是我的电话费，让他讲到他满意。他要了我的姓名地址，堤防心不高的我也随便简单给了。

隔三天，同一个人又打来。他说它公司将会在KL MID VALLEY 5月6日下午3.30举办推广礼并邀请之前乐意与他公司做电话访问的公众前来参礼而且该公司将会在该盛事上颁幸运抽奖，他给了我的幸运抽奖号码要我记录下来。他还说ASTRO凤凰台会现场直播这场推广礼并会在荧幕上宣布得奖的幸运编号，要我留意这直播，因为要是抽中的话，该制作单位会立即与我联系。他顺道询问我是否能抽空出席，我回答我家在槟城不可能出席的，他说没关系只要我留意电视节目就好。我心想我家又没有安装ASTRO，唉，要是得了幸运抽奖我也不知道啦，算了吧。是我的钱就是我的，不是我的即使得到了始终也不会是我的。。。

5月6日下午，一位女子打来，电话显示0302，电话背景传来的杂音像在浩大聚会当中，她说我在他们的百万富翁幸运抽奖中抽到一份礼物，问我是否在MID VALLEY能否前来领取这份奖品，我不疑有它说我不能出席，她说她需要记录我无法出席的原因，看看公司能否保留着份奖品给我，我说家在槟成谎称要事缠身无法抽空参礼。她说奖品部门的工作人员迟些与我联系。算了吧，我不曾得过什么幸运抽奖，也不可能那么幸运的，即使抽到我，奖品也不肯定属于我的啦~妈说我妙想天开，这可能是诈财电话呢。。

昨天，同一个男子打来，电话显示0302，询问我是否有出席或观看昨天电视上的直播，好像明知故问的又滔滔不绝的形容了那推广礼有多盛大还邀请了本地名模榭丽萍道来观礼。。这是电话另一端传来另一个电话响声，他要我稍等一会儿，我久等啰，反正我又是坐着车闲空得很。电话传来他和另一名得奖者说她得到的一部数码相机将在半小时内送到府上，bla..bla..bla。。我不等了因为觉得他很没礼貌要我等他讲完别人的电话，盖了电话。过后他又来电说为何我不稍等他盖了他的电话，我直接说有什么事吗，心想我的幸运将要领的话别人也领走了啦，他要了我的幸运编号一遍询查下我的奖品是否有保留下来，又要我稍等。。他说我得了什么三奖，告诉我是美元5千，现在委托大马罗什么的律师保管储存在伦敦的一家银行，需要我的个人资料来办些手续等我领取。。

我真得很怀疑了，我问他其实他的公司英文拼写是什么，他从哪里打来的，他的总公司在哪里，大马是否有设分公司，为何不寄给我支票，伦敦哪家银行。。。一连串的问题他都迎刃而解-他说英文不好随便拼了给我，他说他从香港分公司打来，总公司是澳门什么威尼斯人什么娱乐场，大马还未设分公司，银行提款比较方便，伦敦RPS银行bla..bla..bla的没完没了。。我说香港分公司哪里，他逃避没回答我，让我疑心更大。但要是他说得出，香港地图在家里，我就无法确定他是否骗我了~刚巧我目的地到了，我没空谈下去，要他11点再打来。

看看我的时钟11正，他的确打来了。香港该有时差的嘛??。。我接了电话，他说我不需负任何的手续费，一切由主办单位负责，只要我的个人资料而已。我看看他玩什么把戏，给了我的姓名生日日期。当他问我的工作时，我说医生，他有点吓倒，我奇怪。。我觉得他其实是要骗我妈的，哪里知道变成我。他该不会已查好受骗者的背景吧??~其实我妈更不好骗..他问到我的身份证号码时，我骗他说我现在很忙，要他明天再打电话来。看看今天他会打电话来吗??

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现在只是换汤不换药，用电话诈财~我向该公司求证了，他们回复如下。我不会报警啦以免惹事上身~



**最新消息：他刚刚又打来了~他向我要了身份证号码与银行户口。我没回答他，反问他的总公司address& 电话号码，他好像有备而来--香港北角渣华道191号21楼，电话：0085261924677。。我说我在忙，叫他迟些再来电！！他最后没来电到~